ROWYS VLOG

ngl ive been fucking miserable today. i tihkn the depression is back, i no longer feel fucking amazing on top of the world.. ive been sleeping all day instead of never sleeping. i still feel sick i think im gonna throw up. ive been playing fucking aj all day, i like classic better but i left my pc at dad's. i'm tryna find my old accound cause i played that shit SO MUCH in 2016 and had a ton of rares and like all the dens and animals lol. im waiting for my mummy to get back from my sister's dance recital so she can bring me my daily monster yayayay. i asked her to get me the rose one this time (one of my faves) obviously the strawberry dreams will alllways be my #1, but i like to have others from time 2 time i'm really sick of posting on traditional social media (tiktok, insta etc) it just feels so dry there, and i have like NO followers even w/ all my hard work. probably gonna get rid of tiktok soon i actually hate that app so fucking much..people just say the same thing over and over and think theyre sooo differesnt for doing normal things. come on now yall. i hate trends. why can't we all just like what we like and not judge eachother. society is soo fucked...

dang, that was an all nighter. thousanth one this month to be exact. XD i spent the entire time coding this damn website with the same amount of self will as a fucking goldfish. this website is slowly becoming more & more important to me. as i add more to it (and taking up more and kore time...) its made me kinda realise how corporatised modern social media has become..it's like..whenever i open up tiktok or something it just feels so tasteless..same old thing over and over. it may take some effort to learn html, but its 100% worth it. i feel like i have my own little universe here that i can mold into whatever i possibly want as my skills grow. and looking at the other neocities is so fun too...i feel so close to these people who ive never even met. making a website is some of the most self expression you can get honestly...its quite fun after you get past the basic learning..i feel like i still learn 100 new things everyday. the possibilities are really endless. I made that art page TWO DAYS AGO and i already have a million ideas to make it better that i was unsure of how to do before. omg i love neocities so much. FUCK MODERN SOCIAL MEDIA MAKE A NEOCITIES RIGHT FUCKING NOWW1!!1!1 Its really not as hard as u would think :p PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS ya idk what else to write but i wanna fill up this space right here hi hih ih hi mmmm chezburge mmmmm chezburgerr num num num wafflicious mmm chavez PIZZA! pop! slurrrpp ahhh vro why tf is it soo hard to fill up this space come on come on come on come onnnnn

ive slept good the past few days!! so im pulling an all nighter tonight muahah.. got kinda high last night, i usually get rlly bad weed hangovers from those cheap ass gummies but it didn't happen this time yayy. i have a monster problem i consume so many of them in a week..I LOVE THE STRAWBERRY DREAMS ONEE :3 ALSO SPENCER ADDED SO MUCH TO HIS PAGE IT LOOKS SO AWESOME AAA i love life why did i wanna kill myself like two days . the depression phase is over yayayaya. it feels like everyone doesnt hate me anymore woohoo. ALSO THE WEED DIDNT GIVE ME DEREALISATION LIKE IT NORMALLY DOES?? ITS BEEN GETTING BETTER. i'm a valued member of kurtistown! meowmmeow emow meow meow. i like internet stuff. i can't play psychopomp cuz i left my pc at dad's..sighhh... its ok i keep dying anyways. i hate the taste of alcohol so much. yes i drink quite often but it tastes so baddd...HAND SANITISER!! And omg most drinks try to cover that up but why does beer make it 10x worse...like...come on now

My sleep schedual is COOKED moday: all nighter. tuesday: all nighter. wednesday: a few hours. thrusday: all nighter. friday: slept until like 3pm. saturday: slept a couple hours sunday: ITS 1 AM GANG i'm such a fucking loser. and no, i dont mean that in some tiktok romantisised way. i mean that as i've been rotting in my room for days. i need to find things to do i never leave my room. ALSO i should've stockpiled weed before summer started cause i have VERY low supply rn and it's hard to get outside of school. idk. i'm trying to quit smoking TABACCO cause its kind of an issue, but it's quite hard. still struggling after a week without it. Anyways today all i did was work on my neocity and play animal jam. i GREW UP on aj and i've been playing it again recently. the classic version is so much better. but everytihngs behind a PAYWALL. ughhh.. still, i perfer that version. idk what i'm doing when it comes to coding and i am genuinely struggling w/ this website. it's still fun tho. i guess it's nice to learn as i go. i remember the original homepage...yuk!1!1

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